Thursday, January 22, 2015
Problem
They're playing around about the story thing like it's Music Education. They made more copy topics.
Weird
Whenever I do something, I get this weird feeling I'm supposed to check if I'm worthy of it when I've done the trash already. No offense.
Problem
I don't play like I need to have a twisted relationship where I do penance. I don't believe in penance.
Playing With Me
Someone on IMDb is writing a story and could PM me at any given time for whatever reason about the story because I wanted to reply to the topic. I don't need to pay back in such a suggestive manner for some thing I've done all the time, just constantly checking out what I do and telling me I did it wrong so overturn some aspect of life for myself. I just felt the muscles roll up my leg. I don't mind being sorry for something I did by accident and being e-mailed while someone writes a story.. but it's done to mess with me.
Sharing
I already learned that. What else do I need to understand? To go along with things now. So, why are things so quiet now, did I check Twitter yet tonight? I know it'll be rather event-less?
I am rather amazed. :)
I see morphing before my eyes someone exactly like Sarah Brightman. I am a big thing. It is interesting what a big thing she is. I find her a bit introverted in a feminine way. She seems really sweet to me or was before. Haven't really seen her, lately, anyway. Guess we'll hear about her in space. You'll love to hear of her in space, as well, I'm glad to hope.
Okay, I am proud people can exactly lead the way and how they are like her! It's just a bit extreme, yet an achievement.. Congrats to the winners! Lead on! Huh huh! It's fun to see people like her.
:)
What does it mean that I am, rather, amazed? It just takes me by surprise. It's like such a big emotional experience, really!..
Okay, I am proud people can exactly lead the way and how they are like her! It's just a bit extreme, yet an achievement.. Congrats to the winners! Lead on! Huh huh! It's fun to see people like her.
:)
What does it mean that I am, rather, amazed? It just takes me by surprise. It's like such a big emotional experience, really!..
From where exactly in Florida do you hail?
I did not grow up to listen to people baby dolling me up. I mean like worshipping Floridians. I am not worshipped, in some ways. I am more known as a loser, in some ways. I mean, there's more to life than what you might be able to find or do in Florida. Hopefully, most people aren't too melted down.
I don't mean anything. I was just thinking about something that hurt me that didn't make sense and this suddenly had to come up. I mean, why would a Floridian think people want them dolled up, for real? I mean, like being overly modern, too, and like not in a hollistic, nurturing fashion~ Where did this idea come from? I guess it was influenced from watching Ellen. She brought 2 boys from LA and their father and found out there was a lot done for the kids, but the adults are a bit on edge. I am seriously wondering where in Florida do people go and practice like being taunting. Like, ooh la la, like oh my gaawd, like like, omigosh! These things are okay. It is hard to describe what I'm sensing. Like, they aren't really like that in Florida. I know. In some ways, it seems much worse. It's more like being fruity and juicy and even mysterious. They are spoiled over people like me. It's like LA in some mold, but we don't have limits. I guess LA is more substantial.
So, the point of this post is wondering where in Florida are they cold and stand-off-ish yet think they are cool when I don't know of any legitimate place in Florida of that nature. True, I was thinking of something else. It's too bad. I wonder if anyone will connect the dots. Like I said, I was just wondering where in Florida they act like that.
I did not grow up to listen to people baby dolling me up. I mean like worshipping Floridians. I am not worshipped, in some ways. I am more known as a loser, in some ways. I mean, there's more to life than what you might be able to find or do in Florida. Hopefully, most people aren't too melted down.
I don't mean anything. I was just thinking about something that hurt me that didn't make sense and this suddenly had to come up. I mean, why would a Floridian think people want them dolled up, for real? I mean, like being overly modern, too, and like not in a hollistic, nurturing fashion~ Where did this idea come from? I guess it was influenced from watching Ellen. She brought 2 boys from LA and their father and found out there was a lot done for the kids, but the adults are a bit on edge. I am seriously wondering where in Florida do people go and practice like being taunting. Like, ooh la la, like oh my gaawd, like like, omigosh! These things are okay. It is hard to describe what I'm sensing. Like, they aren't really like that in Florida. I know. In some ways, it seems much worse. It's more like being fruity and juicy and even mysterious. They are spoiled over people like me. It's like LA in some mold, but we don't have limits. I guess LA is more substantial.
So, the point of this post is wondering where in Florida are they cold and stand-off-ish yet think they are cool when I don't know of any legitimate place in Florida of that nature. True, I was thinking of something else. It's too bad. I wonder if anyone will connect the dots. Like I said, I was just wondering where in Florida they act like that.
Ellen
The mountain climbers were quite respectable.
The guy acting with Johnny Depp was quite handsome and an attractive person.
The singers were cute and had good figures. Worked hard.
The twin boys and their dad were so cute.
Ellen seemed to be in an okay situation today. She is so smart. Modest about that, too. She truly is a professional. I wonder what most people see, tho. I wonder if the people in college she shows could ever home to amount to her like their dream or know someone like her or her herself anyone at all out there. I heard she eats a lot it seems and says she works out each day. I tried dieting. I ate a lotta healthy food before and tried to stay active, worked out at least a little each day one year when I was still in high school.
The guy acting with Johnny Depp was quite handsome and an attractive person.
The singers were cute and had good figures. Worked hard.
The twin boys and their dad were so cute.
Ellen seemed to be in an okay situation today. She is so smart. Modest about that, too. She truly is a professional. I wonder what most people see, tho. I wonder if the people in college she shows could ever home to amount to her like their dream or know someone like her or her herself anyone at all out there. I heard she eats a lot it seems and says she works out each day. I tried dieting. I ate a lotta healthy food before and tried to stay active, worked out at least a little each day one year when I was still in high school.
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Twitter - Dr. Phil
@DrPhil I guess because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) you are getting people who have overstepped into social sin.
— Christina Barrett (@Christina4333) January 22, 2015
Facebook - Dr. Phil
Tell them you will grow up and get outta the house via someone who loves you or college/community college.
Dr. Phil
They brought the same people as yesterday for this half. It was fairly interesting, to me. I think the 1st couple need more time apart. The kids seem safe with the grandparents, in a way..
The 2nd group, I think the grandma needs more time alone and the daughter needs to take walks with her kid for her exercise.
Dr. Phil is a great guy and very smart, and that's why I chose to start watching him.
The 2nd group, I think the grandma needs more time alone and the daughter needs to take walks with her kid for her exercise.
Dr. Phil is a great guy and very smart, and that's why I chose to start watching him.
About What Happened
I really do feel a disagreement that I suffer variably for cursing about noises in my room cuz they hurt me and I disagreed with that monkey business. No offense about the term "monkey." I am sorry it's one of those things you think I said that you don't say but I don't think I was the one who admitted it. I disclaimed you can do what you want and you don't have to give me attention. I don't like when other people step in and tell people who like me not to talk to me. I would talk about someone dumping me as who I am/to them. That really is your choice, and I admit that's something I think now. I just am upset about it, I'm saying.
Worked Out
I feel thrown about.
I did treadmill and machines @ the gym. Treadmill 30 minutes, had to stop for my dislocated foot/ankle. Walked with my weights for over an hour.
I did treadmill and machines @ the gym. Treadmill 30 minutes, had to stop for my dislocated foot/ankle. Walked with my weights for over an hour.
No Relationships
It seems famous people have barged in and questioned the relationship between myself and people such as my Gramma.
Website Update
Trouble
The people in Orlando and who knows who else think I can't have the respect I earned if a little misunderstanding or conflict etc. happens concerning me.
The people in Orlando and who knows who else think I can't have the respect I earned if a little misunderstanding or conflict etc. happens concerning me.
Website Update
Trouble
My parents who live with me almost always seem to have an attitude and send me secret messages of hate. They try to snap make me feel guilty about denying the validity of this and such.
My parents who live with me almost always seem to have an attitude and send me secret messages of hate. They try to snap make me feel guilty about denying the validity of this and such.
Website Update
Life Problems
I was trapped in the house with nothing to do so started e-mailing family and friends. They didn't answer, but I kept e-mailing. Of course, the friends do no talk to me now.
I was trapped in the house with nothing to do so started e-mailing family and friends. They didn't answer, but I kept e-mailing. Of course, the friends do no talk to me now.
Why?
would my dad dedicate something special to him like that? No one will get the joke but me maybe.
My Current Obsessions
I dunno, it was Dr. Phil and Ellen of course. I wanna watch tonight. What else.. I was singing and still do.
I like the jogging with weights.
I like the jogging with weights.
Wah ah ah
I didn't get on Dr. Phil? I have another idea, focusing more on how I don't wanna live alone and how my mom hypnotized the psychiatrist to keep me on meds that I have to take if I live here, which have side-effects like being tired too much and diabetes and perhaps the high cholesterol spikes, as well. (Spike doesn't mean anything specific I know about.) I do wanna live alone, but I want a career. I was gonna move to Miami as a secretary, but they said no stay home and learn to live on your own. I don't have the house clear and am tired on the meds.
So
What do you think of living the dream meeting famous people who are good at what they do, online, only to have them all hate me cuza my dad. Why is he involved now since Nell Burton? Like, he's always coughing up messages right and left. It's a lie that he's totally innocent and like a sad puppy. They keep changing that fact, and it ain't gonna blow over.
Beckoning
My dad is beckoning the buzz on a few nasty jokes. I feel like sparks are flying in anger. I could not believe when I was sent to schools that did a lotta busywork only to expect me to know how to succeed in college, later. It's true, they emphasized it was about getting us out on our way as citizens and not criminals.
Problem
Ever' day my mom acts like there's something wrong with me a lot and my dad, too, of course.
Liars
I found out it's all just a big game to tease me with past attention.
It's also a lie that someone is cool with me. They brought attenteion to others over me and stopped liking me. They are hurting others who are nice.
It's also a lie that someone is cool with me. They brought attenteion to others over me and stopped liking me. They are hurting others who are nice.
Relationships
If someone doesn't wanna have any relationship to me is fine. I just don't like that it's for such a reason to have a bad one.
Problems
I just found my dad picked a name for a website that made it sound like I'd need to pee if I talked about personalty, which I learned young. It could mean a compliment, but I don't believe it. He had a certain negative air about himself. I was probably like 15 or 16. He made another name after a "mistake" in my life, too.
Upset/Unaccepting/Not Understanding
I don't accept others who make others not have a relationship or have a bad one on point of little things that go wrong when people attack me with their attitude.
Vaguely in Trouble
All of a sudden people get mad, and it's like what I didn't do anything. People can literally get on their high horse.
Cheap
If you have to think I'm bad to have a successful relationship. That's just all made up! Little things do happen, but they were not bad things.
You think there's compensation in this "project" or game. You can't just be happy to meet me. What's so good about that?
You think there's compensation in this "project" or game. You can't just be happy to meet me. What's so good about that?
Problem
I don't have the full online experience with these people watching me, controlling when they want the page to load or the internet connectivity to change.
Bed
I may go back to it. I have 1 show to catch up on (Ellen, yesterday.)
I did m********* last night but don't do it heavily. If I do it less, seems I have less problems, at least not all bad like if I did it more.
I did m********* last night but don't do it heavily. If I do it less, seems I have less problems, at least not all bad like if I did it more.
Problems
I want privacy from my dad, but it seems people I like who are famous have secretly met him.
I've learned to ignore the signs. The people watching me privately in my room have been at me this morning. I know I don't hafta listen. I am legal and appropriate and good and nice. I'm not gonna be charged as some random criminal. What about all the other people in the world? Would that work out? No.. Kids'd get sick in the cells. Dogs would die.
About me saying pleasure, yesterday, it may cost me heavily. I did not mean to point anyone out. I just wanted to offer my feelings on the matter. We need to top thinking certain words illude such horrid meanings.
I did find out things that were being done by other/s freely, like I don't matter completely even to myself.
I've learned to ignore the signs. The people watching me privately in my room have been at me this morning. I know I don't hafta listen. I am legal and appropriate and good and nice. I'm not gonna be charged as some random criminal. What about all the other people in the world? Would that work out? No.. Kids'd get sick in the cells. Dogs would die.
About me saying pleasure, yesterday, it may cost me heavily. I did not mean to point anyone out. I just wanted to offer my feelings on the matter. We need to top thinking certain words illude such horrid meanings.
I did find out things that were being done by other/s freely, like I don't matter completely even to myself.
Losing Focus in School
No parent has a right to make their kid feel so uncomfortable thinking they will feel that way anyway that their concentration in school drops, ability to memorize and learn. No matter what they did. They blame the parents.
I do not matter anymore.
I got the message from someone supposedly replacing "all I was" that I just don't matter, my life will never matter anymore.
A Miserable Life
I found out the dirty little secret. Is it indeed my dad who made my life miserable? I could not concentrate in school. Is that why people are scared to be good to me?
"A Quicker Fixer Up-er"
I notice you only manage to dwell on things that involve me and only say it's wrong so you seem better and don't really care about how anyone would manage to concentrate and fix something like that, whatever it may be to you.
What a Big One
Think of you all impatient monsters and machines who won't let younger people experience a nice life all because of how much older you are.
And race.. why tell me I am this I am that I think what I don't think I should think something else? Shouldn't you be nice and help people achieve their dreams?
And race.. why tell me I am this I am that I think what I don't think I should think something else? Shouldn't you be nice and help people achieve their dreams?
Watcha Doing?
Do you even know what you are doing? No one is perfect. It is uncivilized to listen to what other people say someone said. It was rather oncoming. I was being pushed around. I still am. I feel I am being planted back in with just my parents.
I feel as though I am being taunted for fun, like I'm bad cuza Dad.
I feel as though I am being taunted for fun, like I'm bad cuza Dad.
Turning on Me
The lot of you have turned on me for no reason. I better go find me someone to talk to. My therapist seems disgusted in me, like someone is telling her to do that. I guess she is trying to help, tho.
Hm, I don't remember exactly the reason that coupled with why I posted this.
So, why are you all pushing me with weird thoughts and then spending the rest of a long time wondering about it?
Hm, I don't remember exactly the reason that coupled with why I posted this.
So, why are you all pushing me with weird thoughts and then spending the rest of a long time wondering about it?
Dr. Phil
I agree heavily with the mom and dad, the mom saying why would we be on the sho' if you wanna stay together? She just wants help and to get that guy to stop it. We erased the idea that it's the parents that are causing the problem. I think he won't change and they need a divorce. We just can't solve some things.
Dad
He keeps changing who he is. Sometimes he's just the devil in my life. Others, he's just a guy tryin' to make it. Why does everyone hate me?
Dysfunctionality
Why are people so onto what I do when I don't know the made up rules and when I'm put on the spot but manage to change my demeanor, anyway, somehow?
My dad is ruining my life. No one can ask him what to do to me..!
My dad is ruining my life. No one can ask him what to do to me..!
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Facebook - Dr. Phil
We like getting close to adults other than our parents.
Well, I was always well-behaved. My dad is a monster.
Well, I was always well-behaved. My dad is a monster.
Tired
I feel cold and weak but technically stronger yet more and more tired. I woke up in the middle of sleeping.
Well-Behaved Daughter
I am well-behaved to my dad, but don't push me to be too much closer emotionally but just to make him take the place of friends. Same with anyone.
I found this odd.
So, you want me to get up to each day thinking whatever spurts from others is something someone said to me that's messed up?
I don't think I tried to get very mad, but I tossed/juggled the thought and tried to get it out of my mind. I thought that was the original go' (goal.)
I don't think I tried to get very mad, but I tossed/juggled the thought and tried to get it out of my mind. I thought that was the original go' (goal.)
Muscle Mass..
I gained muscle mass from the gym and jogging with weights. I am 156 pounds. My purpose in the gym is not to get tiny and frail but STRONG.
Know what, know what, huh, huh??
Know what I'm not gonna do? I'm not gonna change how I think when I blog in private cuz someone made someone interact with me secretly all the time.
Not gonna be like ooh I must be all neat because so and so says so. I blog on my own.
Not gonna be like ooh I must be all neat because so and so says so. I blog on my own.
Explanations
No, I'm not gonna sit here and let what I say fly like if I say something else it will ruin it.
I can't even say I don't mean what you think. What'd I do? I just didn't say yes to something that wasn't true or wasn't nice. I don't think I barely done anything. Sparks fly.
I can't even say I don't mean what you think. What'd I do? I just didn't say yes to something that wasn't true or wasn't nice. I don't think I barely done anything. Sparks fly.
Issue
I'm tired of people telling me all of a sudden look what a bad girl I am. School is my prerogative if I failed, and I had a reason.
Like they say look how bad Christina is all of a sudden, never heard of that before! Look how tacky she is to experience emotions for others. You all are so wrapped up in yourselves you have no prerogative all the while hardly tapping on discussing emotions!
Like they say look how bad Christina is all of a sudden, never heard of that before! Look how tacky she is to experience emotions for others. You all are so wrapped up in yourselves you have no prerogative all the while hardly tapping on discussing emotions!
I know it's wrong.
They keep acting offended. Why isn't my life made up of other things/secluding things like this? Like before. Why are all these other people so famous and think they're better than me?
Upset
It just comes out, without doing anything, I swear.
I'm tired of people hating on me for my dad or someone else.
I'm tired of people hating on me for my dad or someone else.
A ... wake!
I woke up @ 11:40.
I ate my breakfast:
2 medium-rare bacon strips
a bowl of grits with butter
2 English muffin halves with butter
3 scrambled eggs
I cooked supper in about 1 hour and 20 minutes and still heating and need to do the noodles. It's beef chopped up with bacon, mushrooms, flour, red wine.. and fettucini. From some health book. I increased everything other than the beef.
I ate my breakfast:
2 medium-rare bacon strips
a bowl of grits with butter
2 English muffin halves with butter
3 scrambled eggs
I cooked supper in about 1 hour and 20 minutes and still heating and need to do the noodles. It's beef chopped up with bacon, mushrooms, flour, red wine.. and fettucini. From some health book. I increased everything other than the beef.
Nite Soon
Sad teens are so withdrawn in public.
I just had soup and crackers. (potatos/chicken canned + Trisciuts)
Ellen
Jennifer Anniston was so hot! Her skin was radiant! It was like red and tan. She is such a sweet person. I like her a lot.
The 3rd grade teacher was so adamant and nice! I admired her greatly.
The Japanese guitarist and singer was so awesome and looked pretty white. Japanese and Koreans want to be seen as Caucasian, and they are essentially yet something like Irish.
Ellen was cool today. She seemed cool with the audience.
The 3rd grade teacher was so adamant and nice! I admired her greatly.
The Japanese guitarist and singer was so awesome and looked pretty white. Japanese and Koreans want to be seen as Caucasian, and they are essentially yet something like Irish.
Ellen was cool today. She seemed cool with the audience.
Dr. Phil's sho'
I am fortunate to be able to write these summaries in my off musings.
I found this girl to be adamant but seemed to feel a bit empty, like an emptiness one get in one's eyes who yearn for emotion and a world of being popular and accepted by one and by all.
More.. It makes me think of myself. It makes me think of a lotta things that would take 'while to load. Er whatever. Load! Ha ha! I think people think we all need guidance from a psychologist. I don't know what I think about the meds.
His book sounds sweet. I'd like to buy it. I could get it on my Nook. Wait, it's not there. I didn't see it at B&N.
I feel I don't deserve much, like enjoying these shows. They are so good and available. Why don't people come to me? I'm like always online or out getting in shape! People need to learn to trust more people. They need to remember to enjoy life. To not think badly when they can.
You know, when I was in community college, I could not stand the way people were acting towards me sometimes but like they weren't doing it. I ran out when the teacher started and told people. She told me to stay. Once, I got so mad I kicked 2 boys's chairs, tho it seemed like natural. Not proud of this. I used to get snotty in public.. I guess I can't say I blame the teacher's and students's having an attitude and bothering me in how they act. Sometimes, they are real sweet. Now, I'm on meds which cripple my freedom, along with a curfew. My mom decided I take meds or else I get kicked out when I tried to leave and she said I wasn't ready, almost got a job in Miami I think as a secretary. I said we don't have money. They think I will be dangerous and just want me subdued, like under a tranquilizer.
I feel bad now about how I used to curse about whoever put noises in my room.. they did bother me.
I feel that I was loved too much. People think I am sheltered. Others are spoiled brats. There's 2 ways, apparently. I mean, my dad even believes he gave me the good parts of my voice. I wonder. People in the end may sputter I never did anything. It would be nice if others got this gift.
I don't know. On this sho', I think I said as much as I need to say..
I found this girl to be adamant but seemed to feel a bit empty, like an emptiness one get in one's eyes who yearn for emotion and a world of being popular and accepted by one and by all.
More.. It makes me think of myself. It makes me think of a lotta things that would take 'while to load. Er whatever. Load! Ha ha! I think people think we all need guidance from a psychologist. I don't know what I think about the meds.
His book sounds sweet. I'd like to buy it. I could get it on my Nook. Wait, it's not there. I didn't see it at B&N.
I feel I don't deserve much, like enjoying these shows. They are so good and available. Why don't people come to me? I'm like always online or out getting in shape! People need to learn to trust more people. They need to remember to enjoy life. To not think badly when they can.
You know, when I was in community college, I could not stand the way people were acting towards me sometimes but like they weren't doing it. I ran out when the teacher started and told people. She told me to stay. Once, I got so mad I kicked 2 boys's chairs, tho it seemed like natural. Not proud of this. I used to get snotty in public.. I guess I can't say I blame the teacher's and students's having an attitude and bothering me in how they act. Sometimes, they are real sweet. Now, I'm on meds which cripple my freedom, along with a curfew. My mom decided I take meds or else I get kicked out when I tried to leave and she said I wasn't ready, almost got a job in Miami I think as a secretary. I said we don't have money. They think I will be dangerous and just want me subdued, like under a tranquilizer.
I feel bad now about how I used to curse about whoever put noises in my room.. they did bother me.
I feel that I was loved too much. People think I am sheltered. Others are spoiled brats. There's 2 ways, apparently. I mean, my dad even believes he gave me the good parts of my voice. I wonder. People in the end may sputter I never did anything. It would be nice if others got this gift.
I don't know. On this sho', I think I said as much as I need to say..
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