Showertime

Yikes!  ;o

Sad

I wish I coulda otherwise politely ignore that which I do not know how to respond.  I understood different forces at play.  There, that's what I wish, and it's sorta what I did except with an upset feeling attached.

It's funny how the big thing is that it's to be against me.

I don't need a lesson in being humble.  Just because I was praised for being good.  Life has turned into a nightmare for no apparent reason.

When they rub it in, they try to hit a nerve each time.

Problems

So, why are you acting like only someone else deserves "a special moment?"  Is it tacky?  I hope you don't make it tacky.  No, I will not listen to that you think I should be punished.  Why is rubbing it in to me a part of something critical like that to you?

Upset

I don't like my dad getting in the middle of my problems.  He isn't even supposed to know me, anymore.  Not that that's exactly what I'm looking to do.

I don't live to unravel

meaningless messages like this.

You're all rubbing in

something to me in a mean way.  I am nicer than other people and more accepting.  You chose to be rude to me.  Fine!

I cannot forgive this.

You think it'll either all change or won't, which is why.

And

as said before I am not speaking to any 1 person.

I ALSO HAD SAID

I just didn't like the way my mom sent the message, tho I might have to disagree tho I like to say I both agree and disdain because of the hate..

I know it was an edging on like it was to be my decision to say no and go.

Didn't I say

something like not to tell me I'm bad?

What about

the saying you hate me using critical things like this??

If anyone cares to know

I do like other people to get attention and not me.  I just need some sometimes.  I know that people are trying to make me feel unimportant using someone else getting attention like follow the leader and that I'm in trouble and they can't be.  I don't really mind.  I am sorry, but this morning they said it in a way that just rubbed in like sin.

So, they let some girls enjoy life looking thin and "typical" .. beautiful .. but not for me!

All you obese people out there

If you were overweight for a significant portion of life, I know how exciting it can seem once you finally feel what it's like to be really slender and alive.

Feeling Bad

I didn't altogether mean to end my video on a bad note saying what my dad does.  You know we texted and now he used a graphic smilie, instead.

Respect for Real Relationships

I am not just oh wow I'll meet all the people such and such doesn't like in their lives rather than that I liked them themselves cuza a bunch of lying.

Website Update

Life Problems

My extended family and probably others think I myself am a mistake because my dad left a note for his mom before he went to marry my mom.